i crashed at 630PM, and just woke up at 9PM. i’m walking that foggy line between re-energized and still blurry and numb; not being able to sleep immediately, but afraid of staying up all night now. gonna turn to the drugs.
Month: March 2009
bloody keys
It is charming to discover your skin has split and your fingertip is bleeding by a bloodstain on your keyboard.
card from my mom
this is one of my favorite of the many cards my mother has sent me
$180 of soup
My personal chef delivered again, and now she is off to India. Which is fine b/c my brother comes for a week tmrw, then i’m away for a week, then my mom comes for a week. When they leave my freezer will be full, for sure.
Skin Flakes
This is what my skin looks like in the morning
Chocolate from BsAs
Cucumber Soup and Bean Salad with Truffle Oil
Maybe I can’t afford a personal chef… a quart of soup and a quart of bean salad were $120… they had truffle oil, and shallots, and all kinds of nice things. but it might just be too expensive.
18 weeks to go
Week 30 of self injection complete. 34/52 weeks complete. 18 weeks go go. I’m 2/3 of the way.
Mouth Sores
These are the lesions on the sides of my mouth. I have one on each side. Right about where my teeth meet. I also have two on my tongue. All of these are at least 1 cm in length. Raw. And painful.
As if the nausea wasn’t hard enough, it actually hurts badly to put anything in my mouth. Even water hurts.
A Tarot Reading: “No”
Addwag writes:
In honor of your last few post I did a tarot reading for you and I thought the card I pulled for you might be helpful for you to see.
I really don’t know what to say to you sometimes, because you are so much like me- I feel like I am giving myself advice which, lets be honest, I never listen to – esp. when it comes from myself.. I am too busy trying not to fall behind whatever self imposed deadlines I made for myself.
hope you’re feeling a bit more rested (but that doesn’t mean you should get out of bed)
mantra: no no no..
xoo
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