Interferon is not supposed to cause your hair to fall out the way that conventional Chemo does. The traditional chemo patient story is that one day, after the second or third treatment, all their hair on their entire body falls off in one day.
I had relatively little hair loss up until month two or three, when I started to notice excessive amounts of hair in the drain… *when I didn’t wash my hair!*
I also notice that if i undo a hair band, there is maybe 5x the amount of hair that would normally be there.
And I have noticed I can see my scalp. My hair is *thinning* which is what IFN is known to do.
I told my dad, and he jokingly reminded me that this was about when he started to go bald. But we have different mother’s fathers, and my mother’s father didn’t go bald (to my knowledge), so I have hope.
I always thought if I got cancer the worst part would be learning I had it and the second worst part (but only by a little) would be losing my hair. Call in vanity or just the fact its a billboard for what you are dealing with– which for someone who likes to pretend like nothing is ever wrong (me) is maybe the hardest part. People see what you’re experiencing, there is so much vulnerability and there is really no hiding it.
I have been having a lot of dreams lately about you- just simple everyday exchanges but often times I see you and we just sit on the couch (not sure who’s couch because I don’t have one) and cry together and I always wake up with a wet pillow. . .